I'm sorry, maybe you never considered the fact that I do not own the same amount of funds some other people have to help fund laser research. I can't afford laser systems like you're able to. Heck, I can't even afford many of the pointers displayed here. I have a 30mW DX pointer and the generously sent to me MXDL and 405nm by dave and jander. The other lasers I own are prizes from banner competitions.
Also, maybe contributing to the forum means nothing to you. The Review Thread means nothing, the Diode Compilation Thread means nothing, organizing a GB to help members get some lasers at discount price with 0% personal gain means nothing, keeping the box list updated and tidy means also nothing. Could it just be that my time means nothing to you? I'm pretty sure that is what you think, since as I don't contribute to lasers because I can't afford them, I HAVE to do something to be worthwhile here, don't I?
If this is an attack to my post count and/or rep. power then I can assure you that you could take all of that away and I would still come back here and contribute as much as I can.
I do have things to contribute regarding lasers. I can help with theory, but there are members such as PBD, climbak, laserben who know MUCH more than many of us and are most likely to give better answers than I can. I try to help members with math every now and then.
I'm sorry you felt like I was moderating you or anybody. As you can see, I rarely jump on someone, the last one I jumped at (uncalled for) was buildabluraylaser. I was 100% wrong about what I said to him so after being put into place by dopamine I realized I had to edit those posts, which I did.
You know, after what you said up there I realized why I HAD to say what I said on the box thread. You not shipping the box where it should've been made me feel like my work (keeping the list updated, organising the box's path) is 100% useless and actually meant nothing to you. So yeah, there you have it.
I also barged in the "fight" because I thought you were still arguing about it. Dave is correct when he says that humans don't like confrontation. It IS true, I don't like it, especially between you, me, and all the friends I've made here.
We do thank you for the information you provided, as we previously did in every thread or comment you made regarding those subjects.
You were only looking for something/somebody responsible for triggering your leaving. Don't try to guilt me into believing that me and (in the less part, TJ) are 100% responsible for "making you mad enough" to leave LPF.
Sorry for that. I really feel sorry for this, but I wish I didn't let you guilt me into thinking that I was the one that made you leave LPF. You had that planned long ago. You kept on getting madder and madder these days, you jumped at people too. I wasn't the only one you had a discussion with this week.
You seriously can't consider other people's time, don't you? I know you have a family, maybe a stressful job. But we ALSO have that stuff, you know? Going to college to study Industrial Engineering is a big deal to me and I spent a lot of time studying. My posting here doesn't mean that I have time to waste, I come here to relax for some minutes after doing some excercises on X subject (AND to read interesting stuff about my hobby).
In addition, so you actually know how I feel about this: I've been studying my A$$ off for the last couple of days. I woke up at 9:00AM each day and went to sleep at 4:30AM, studying through the whole day, sitting at home, watching the pain on my leg grow stronger each hour for being so much time stressed and nervous about big freaking impossible-to-pass exams.
Today I got an email with the mark I got on the exam I took yesterday. It was a 7 (out of 10). Yet I couldn't feel happy about it, NOT THE LEAST BIT, even after all the work I put on studying for that test... because all day long I felt bad and worried too much about the discussion we had in that thread and now you leaving LPF.
So there you have it. Thanks for that. Getting this out of my system makes no change at all, I still feel bad about it even when I know I shouldn't.
This is my first huge long rant and I really hope you read it all.
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