Sorry for your diode, most of us have killed one or more, myself a few, M140 the most expensive so far, thankfully. I prefer the NDB7475 because it is sealed under a cap with a window, the NUGM03 uses an integrated ball lens which isn't always collimated to infinity causing the focus to be off one way or another, at least, one way which I believe is out (re: in-out). Without that cap, debris can get on the diode itself and cause a failure. Beyond that problem I am not sure if this diode suffers from being exposed to air, I know the NUBM07E has that problem and will have a shortened life when using it, just sitting without the ball lens in place doesn't appear to degrade the diode, but using it when exposed to air, yep.
Regarding relationships with women, at base, I often think we are just their banks, a source for money and support, and they are our bank for DNA to move forward into the future. Once you have children (and under the age of 18), they can leave you and still get support and your children will carry forward your DNA, deal is done for both.